Edwin's weird life

3 weeks more

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 22:22:50 +0800

Including this week, and every he’ll I’ve been through could be concluded, a fruitful NS life definitely, with endless stories to tell and things to complain. But it was tiring for sure.

I thank NS, it helped me mature and gave me time to think about my future, I will be a chef for sure.

Oh and fuck you Xie Wei, for being the most egoistic demanding petty fucker ever. You taught me that you really can’t please everyone in life, just know who is worth your effort at the end of the day.

Dream number 1

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:05:12 +0800

I was on my way to darren’s place when i lent my phone to this white coat stranger for some unknown reason, then i continued to sit on the bus but it got crowded fast and i lost track of the guy. Fast forward to empty bus, tried to borrow phone from 2 strangers at the back and somehow went full retard and couldn’t use their phone, apparenly you needed to press 0000 before the handphone number because its some settings number. I missed darren’s house. Gg

Relationship end

Sun, 28 Oct 2012 04:05:02 +0800

Well, bad Edwin, no more relationships.

Love

Tue, 28 Aug 2012 18:56:40 +0800

Can be a real comfort as well as troubling.

And she’s really important.

I want to do what’s best for her and us, making her happy makes me happy. But I wish I was better at this.

Angel's Kiss

Wed, 01 Aug 2012 00:07:44 +0800

PASTA?

20 bucks

Sun, 29 Jul 2012 22:12:14 +0800

To make everyone feel better…

To make myself feel better

To make someone feel better that I’m feeling better.

Lol

Thu, 26 Jul 2012 20:47:45 +0800

Lol

I wonder...

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 23:17:11 +0800

For a self-proclaimed smart guy, I sure get influenced by word of mouth and whatever rumours pretty easily.

"Live a simple life and you will be happy. But be smart about things."

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 11:53:53 +0800

“Live a simple life and you will be happy. But be smart about things.”

- Edwin “Wish” Tay

I love you.

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 11:50:48 +0800

Shivvy!
We should chat

Turns out

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 20:05:14 +0800

My food blog might turn out interestingly with everyone helping

Last week

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 06:29:42 +0800

Before RCC finally finishes., then going to enjoy CAT before going back

Navigation

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 05:59:18 +0800

With
A
Heavy
Bag is actually quite tough

Promise

Wed, 30 May 2012 19:33:23 +0800

This weekend I’ll be posting here and making this a food blog

I guess I only return here during emo times

Thu, 01 Mar 2012 23:29:59 +0800

It’s been a damn long while huh, entering the army, failing to get into Navy OCS, which I am somewhat damn happy about, and getting into SCS to become a Sergeant, and maybe getting into Recce to become a real life scout, it’s a bit of a rofl.

Anyways, this time my emo problem is with Steph, the girl who I’m currently in love with, we had an excellent Valentine’s together, and I thought we could be together, but somehow it went strange and downhill from there.

Somehow we’ll stay as friends for now, which I somewhat don’t really mind… Not really but yeah, rofl. The truth is, I really love her, but I respect her a lot, if we’re meant to be best friends for life, I would totally welcome that. You’re awesome Steph! Stay awesome.

Well, hello blog, I missed you.

Gotta stop... Thinking so much, feels like an illness

Sun, 14 Aug 2011 17:17:50 +0800

Why is it that, whenever I have an issue with my life, I just… overthink the shit out of it, that yeah, sorts of feel like an illness, it’s almost comparable to like people hallucinating about things, I just believe things are true even though logically they’re not, and think the worst of situations like a true pessimist.

Sighballs, it’s like I’m fighting a battle against myself everyday, stupid brain!

So yeah, beneath my happy, clown-ish, slightly egoistic and awesome exterior you have this fragile, feminine, crazy(literally) overly sensitive and emotional guy. Yeah!

Anyways, watching dramas again, yay. Watched Nobuta wo Produce, Orange Days, and watching Kurosagi now.

Orange Days, the things they say will remain in my mind forever, love it.

After forever, post again, emo + happy post

Tue, 12 Jul 2011 08:23:08 +0800

So like, hi again followers, I’m seeing 2 max right here, haha.

Anyways, just have something to say again. Yay my father just got drunk and raged again, this time(like always) accused my mom of having an affair outside, this time’s evidence, he found a condom in some long lost bag that my mom doesn’t even use anymore, and that was given to her by a girlfriend, for fun, I guess.

So blah blah, rage, emo, everyone started crying and became emotional. I just don’t know what to do anymore really, I’ve honestly done all I could possibly do, I just love my parents too much to not do anything like they tell me to.

Divorce seems pretty inevitable.

Anyways, the thing I’m most angry with, is the fact that I punched the wall and hurt myself, even though it was pretty inevitable, just had to project that… feeling somewhere. Hurt myself on my right knuckles, it’s bruising up and hurting like fuck now, along with some light bruises on my knees because I kneel down from standing position, lol. I just started crying and I went something like “why did I hurt myself how do I become a chef in the future” like… 50 times.

Blogging does make you feel better, along with telling someone about it(THANKS FELIX, GL ARMY LOL), but I kinda… Yeah, I do want everybody to know, so that they can sympathize with me, I never show my soft side, I’m always the trolling happy guy, who’s never sad, but I do become sad, but pretty much only regarding my parents.

Moving on! Gotta, I guess, might as well talk about something else… Might as well talk about Steph! Mm, I feel so comfortable calling her “Steph”, don’t think I can ever call her Stephy… Feels weird, heh.

Looking at my parents, I wonder if I’ll ever be a good husband, or more like, the most excellent husband ever… I know I will, I will definitely love my wife and kids, more than anything else, I’ll do everything for them, and I’ll definitely trust my wife, I really feel that’s the most important, If we ever do lose feelings for each other, which I really… Don’t want to happen, but if we do, I rather we tell each other straight.

Mm, yeah, I do see a future with me and Steph, really, I never actively searched for a girlfriend, I believe that the One will somehow appear in your life somehow, in my case it’s Steph, she’s everything I ever wish for, we share so much in common and I’m kinda always shocked after I say something, and then she’s like, “me too”, well, shocked in a good way.

Anyways, I really do love everything about her, with her being so kind-hearted, so loving towards friends, a good sense of humour, able to control my ego(haha, more on that later). Maybe the only thing is that I wish she’s like super pretty, but that’s kind of like the guy fantasy isn’t it? But I do love her for what she is though, and she’s making efforts to slim down, and actually it’s quite similar to me, and in that aspect, we’re kind of the same, awesome. I often kind of joke-ish with her that we’ll become super sexy in the future, but I do wish that it’ll come true, I really feel that she’ll become super pretty when she does slim down, mm, hot butts.

Yeah, anyways, I don’t think we’ll be a couple anytime soon, reason being that she had a bad relationship just a while ago and I don’t think she’s ready for a new one, and not too sure about this but… I think I might be too young? Haha, she mentioned something about it yesterday, kinda funny because we’ll always be 3 years apart, heh. But yeah, what we have right now, this friendship, is super important to me, even if we don’t become a couple in the future(PLEASE HOPEFULLY NOT),we’ll still be best of friends.

Everything else… Next time!

Supercell - Perfect day (Translated)

Sun, 08 May 2011 18:22:31 +0800

Okay, this is sort of my attempt to translate lyrics to english and hopefully not fail facepalmfully.

あぁ～

誰も居ないい道路で
Who also absent road
On the empty road.

両手を広げ歩いた
Both hands spreading out walking
Walking with both hands spreading out

目を閉じてから私はそっと
eyes closed from me softly
I gently closed my eyes

心の中で
heart’s middle
In my heart

小さな賭けをしたんだ
Small bet I was
I made a small bet

白線から落ちたら負け
white line from fallen, lose
If i fall from the white line I lose

昔こんなのやってた
long ago I used to do this
I used to do this long ago

あぁ～
なんか懐かしいな
something nostalgic
It sure brings back memories.

It’s a perfect day

飛行機雲走って追いかけた
contrails run after put
I used to chase after trails left by airplanes

いつか手は届くって
someday hand received
Someday I will touch them with my hands

そう信じていたけど
That believed
That was what I believed.

空はあまりに遠かったから
sky too far
But the sky is too far

ちっぽけな自分が悲しく思えたんだ
Tiny self sad I thought
And that made me sad about how small I was

あぁ～

思えたんだ
How I felt…

もしも

今、隕石が降ってきてるとしても
Now, even if it has been raining meteors

私は気がつくことも出来ず
I am also unable to notice

天国行きで
Go on to heaven

まぁ～いっか～
Well… whatever
それもありかな
That also…

あの日小さな冒険
少し
強くなれたような
あぁ～
大切な思い出

あぁ～

It’s a perfect day
飛行機雲走って追いかけた
きっと手は届くって
誰も信じてないけど
私知ってるんだよ
だって
ほら見える
絶対捕まえるんだから

あぁ～

行き止まり
飛び越えて走る
どこまでも

あぁ～

(It’s such)

Such a perfect day
立ち止まって空を仰いだら
蒼い青いキャンバスに
一筋の雲が駆け抜けた
いつかの空と同じ
だから、今
もう一度だけ手を伸ばした
あぁ～
手を伸ばした

あぁ～

I am going to do a cover of this song, as soon I totally learn...

Thu, 24 Mar 2011 06:53:42 +0800

I am going to do a cover of this song, as soon I totally learn how to sing it.

I am going to learn Japanese

Thu, 24 Mar 2011 06:17:11 +0800

Like, Passion filled, hopefully soon.

And not give up halfway.